Please stop me from falling

for you.

Songs That Make Me Cry

In no particular order:

When I'm With You - Faber Drive

You and I Tonight - Faber Drive

Thunder - Boys Like Girls

Deep and Meaningless - Rooster

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

Untitled - Simple Plan

Home - Chris Daughtry

You Do, You Don't - The Friday Night Boys

Perfect - Hedley

Dying To Live Again - Hedley

Without You - Hinder

What If - Jason Derulo

Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Back to December - Taylor Swift

Can You Hear Me - Taeyeon

If - Taeyeon

Even If It's Not Necessary - F.T. Island

Y, Why... - C.N. Blue

The Name I Loved - Onew ft. Kim Yeon Woo

Let You Go - TRAX

Won't Let You Go Even If I Die - 2AM

Like Crazy - 2AM

You Wouldn't Pick My Calls - 2AM

远方 - S.H.E

沿海公路的出口 - S.H.E

退后 - 周杰伦

Now That She's Gone - 林俊杰

一千年以后 - 林俊杰

会有那么一天 - 林俊杰

再一次拥有 - 龚诗嘉

Rock ballads are the best, word.

Avec l'Expression IV: In Jubilation

26th November was an awesome day. TP Band had its concert. I had a blast and I'm sure the rest of the members did too. It was an amazing yet tiring experience planning this whole thing with my comm members and I think we all did a great job! Well, apart from me missing my cue to go up to give flowers to Mr Tan (oops) and the clearing up of the audi and all the shit, the whole concert went pretty well and I think I have never ever enjoyed a concert as much as I have had for this one.

This concert made me realise why I loved band so much - I absolutely love performing. Whether it is playing an instrument, singing or whatever, what I really love showing people what I like to do. And band, in this case, has provided me with so many opportunities and I thank my mum for asking me to join band lol. Though I reckon I will not continue after Poly :/ I need more time with my guitar!

The night was a truly memorable one as I had the best supporters I could ever have! My CMM friends were mad (in a good way). Mad props to Keith for shouting all the way and for coming on stage to pass me the flowers which was unbearably embarrassing hahaha. Thank you to Stef, Rach, Brenda, Deanna and Jon who were present too! This was the first time that non-band peepz came for any of my band concerts and tbh I was kinda touched hahah cuz I fall asleep in band concerts that I attend but when y'all decided to go for it I was really happy. Truly the best friends I've ever had! Also, I was pleasantly surprised when I saw Brian, Haziq and Jet who came without telling me! Awesomeee guys! :)

Had a great time with the TP Band peepz too, especially my section mates! Glory glory horns! I love how that whichever French horn section I am/was in, we are always one of the most bonded sections. I love how y'all feel obliged to entertain me when I do stupid things. Our A Capella sessions in the piano room will forever be missed! Best instrument in the band, right? :)

French Horns ft. Charlie

To the rest of my band mates who in one way or another have tolerated my nonsense and crazy antics, and who I played ball with, thank you very much. You all have definitely made my life in band most interesting. Heheh.

Thank you our conductor, Mr Tan, for always being there for us. You are just like a dad who we look up to. Your years of experience have definitely enriched us. Your patience was also important to us and thank you for tolerating all our nonsense too.

The last group of people whom I wanna thank is none other than my main committee - Jeyanthi, Ian, Elsie, Sweehan, Mark, Hordin and Kevin! There were many problems in the midst of preparing for the big day but we managed to overcome everything and present a decent concert to everyone who was present! The turnout was not as bad as we expected! Much credit to Sweehan and Hordin who did the most work for this concert!

It was a great night. And I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world - the experience, the performing, the camaraderie, and most importantly, the people. ♥

Time Really Flies

Okay the fact that concert day is here hasn't fully dawned on me yet. It feels like it is next month or something. But okay I just got a little excited about it and I hope that we will not be playing to a half empty hall.

On a lighter note, I finished all the assignments due this week, including my RadioPro Assignment, which took me only an hour :) Thank you to Rach for helping me with the voice-over! It was fun voicing for your work! *cue Titanic music*

Multi-Cam assignment was hell and I'm really glad I finished it too. I probably should sleep soon to make up for my lack of sleep!

Okay Mich don't panic on stage or fall down you will do fine. Fighting!

Breakdown.

The beginning of my Sunday was really great although I had to wake up at 8am.

The end of my Sunday was just fucked up. That's what happens when you put annoying parents, a fucking annoying brother who can't take his hands off your face (or to himself) for god knows what reason, a bunch of irresponsible people who keep giving you problems together.

I'm getting sick and tired of something that I have been involved in for eleven years. No prizes for guessing what. I'm quite positive that I wouldn't have become like that if I was just still an ordinary member with minimal responsibilities. I don't even know why I was elated on getting that post. Everything's like screwed now srsly and I don't wanna continue anymore.

And seriously, mum, when I'm obviously upset, can you not ask stupid questions like 'Can you not show that face?' Wtf I am just like any other teenager who needs attention and care and concern from her mum and instead of asking what's wrong, you ask a fucking stupid question like that.

And now there's that ass of a brother who follows me around like a leech, who does not know how to make his own decisions, who comes to me to ask for help about every single minor thing, who disturbs me at the wrong times and who is a fucking liar. You really need to learn how to admit your mistakes, make your own freaking decisions and most of all, LEARN HOW TO SAY 'SORRY'. You are such an idiot and you really piss me off seriously.

And sigh I hate it when I have no one to rant to cause everyone is busy with their own things :/ I need someone's shoulder to cry on real bad currently.

Lastly, fuck my life.

Suicidal thoughts.

ENOUGH

I'm gonna try to refrain from using vulgarities.

Seriously, I've had enough with you. How can anyone be so narrow-minded and insensitive? I have been putting up with you but you never annoyed me as badly as today. Just three sentences from you and I swear I could have shouted at you. Was my expression not obvious enough? I was already feeling bad and you had to rub it in. I really wanted to strangle you but I did not want to dirty my hands.

I don't think I've ever been this angry since Poly started. Sorry to everyone who had to see it. :/

The next time you ever talk to me, you'd better watch your words. The next time I get angry at you, I'm gonna blow, and I will not care how many people are around me at that time.

Not joking.